Last night after a family party, not to say good-bye, but to feel and express gratitude for more than 15-years of unconditional love, we planned our next 'reunions', hanging out on Lago Maggiore in only a few weeks.
Exhausted, I called it an early night, and the moment I went horizontal, time began to flow backwards while recalling the many events that have transpired over the last three years. Watching profound emotional memories unfold and open in real time, my eyes began to leak as I re-experienced memories of events that were as true in that moment as they'd been in the passed... Sorrow at having to leaving the relationship I'd hoped would be for the rest of this lifetime... The mental brain-wringing that it took to write 250,000 words for the Elsevier book, "The Mereon Matrix: Unity, Perspective and Paradox", knowledge that has defined my Purpose and how I live my life for over 28-years... remembering friends who have made their transition from this life to the next, most significantly, the death of my mom.
The last thing I remember before falling asleeep was laughing as I quoted me to me...
"Your tears are the breaking birth waters of wisdom; their saltiness is imbued with the power to melt all icy illusions for they open your heart to allow you to face every storm. Remember that the clouds will part and Sun will shine again. And on the moments where it seems dark, look up and moon glow and starlight will light your path. When Mother Nature's lights are 'off', turn on your inner lights and allow insight to wash over your heart. And when tears fall for goodness sake, grab your 'tear jar', and remember what Dad told you all his life: "Catch every drop of this curative elixir and you'll soon find your world filled with rainbows."