Black and Blue: Bruises to my heart, brain and spirit

For years friends, individuals who long ago stopped watching mainstream news, have asked why I daily wade into the turbulent waters of media, sometimes more than once a day. From my perspective the answer was simple: If your commitment is to make a positive difference in the world it helps to know what in the world is going on.

Spending most of my time in places other than the land of my birth, it hurts deeply to say how many times I've been ashamed of my beautiful blue passport; this little rectangle of pages that let's me move, grow and be fully present in the world.

Once again, yesterday's 'Breaking News' broke my heart, as the insanity of guns easily and legally finding their way into the hands of the angry who have a few buck in their pocket, destroyed innocent lives. To know that death was playing out live across social media shredded the spirit of innocence.

In tears, I picked up my paintbrush to begin to a process that usually brings contentment to my heart because it usually releases my brain. It didn't work.

Deciding to watch a funny movie, I turned on the television but what happened next was a synchronicity that even shocked me. Before I could flip to the movie channel, the British program "Sherlock" came on, and in the scene playing at that moment, I watched as the inimitable Benedict Cumberbatch, who plays Sherlock Holmes, stomp through a posh London home as Martin Freeman, Doctor Watson, ran after him yelling, "Sherlock, we have to call the police!"

Pistol in hand, Sherlock opens the door, steps out onto the portico and promptly shoots five rounds into the air. At the count of two an indeterminate number of police sirens begin screaming, and he turns to Watson and blithely says, "They're on their way."

Lynnclaire Dennis

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